oh dear...again.

i dont know why i did it.after dinner which came to 400 calories, i had the craving for a biscuit.I then had just one m and s chocolaty round.Sugar makes me crave more sugar.I then had a boost(i think i had it in my head from earlier on in the day), a skinny cow ice lolly.
30 mins later i had 2 packets of seabrook crisps with 2 slices of bread,1 magnum and another m and s biscuit
all this disgusting food came to 1442 cals. I am so annoyed at myself.to make it worse i then threw all of it up.I am so angry at myself and disappointed. I thought i did really well earlier by not bingeing after the fudge bar.
the worse thing is that when i have just checked my blog, 2 lovely people, caroline and rachel have left me a comment on how well i did not going mad after the fudge. Im sure if i had seen this earlier i wouldnt have binged. I do not know what triggered it off, my OH is at work tonight, i dont know if it was boredom.I knew what i was doing but couldnt stop myself,its like going into zombie mode.
The annoying thing is thaat i go to the gym loads however i do know its 90% nutrition and 10% exercise. By bingeing, im wasting all the hard work i put in at the gym.
I HATE THE FOOD I BINGE ON. I dont like it, I dont enjoy it,its full of s%^t. I really wanted to have a good few days before my birthday on sunday and my night away on thursday. I need to burn lots of calories in the gym in the meantime.
my only saving grace is that i have ate nowwhere as many calories that i normally do for a binge.1400 calories is more than my daily allowance.
_________________________________________________________________________my line
is drawn.I am back on track from NOW. I am determined to break this cycle of bingeing and being disgusted by myself. I will become lean.The only barrier to this is me.

*******apoligies if the above post is to much info***********************