My 2 days away

I havent posted for days.Today was my weigh in. i have put on one pound a half.I am not panicking though as it was my birthday last week and i went away.
My lovely OH took me for a full spa day at http://www.malmaison-manchester.com/indulge/petit-spa. It wa heaven, i had a full body massage,then a facial and lunch and then a pedicure. It was a suprise.I loved it.....He then arranged for us to stay at a fab boutique hotel called didsbury house. We stayed in a eclectic room which had a roll top bath in the bedroom! I watched come dine with me whilst soaking in the bath,heaven...........
In the evening we went to greens restuarant in didsbury,this is a veggie place that is owned by simon rimmer(he is the bald chef on that programme called something for the weekend on bbc2 on a sunday).the food was divine and the place was packed for a thurday night. After having a good nights sleep in the biggest bed in the world, we then went into manchester city centre for the day yesterday,had some lunch and came home.over the 2 days i ate:
thursday
B=porridge and skimmed milk
s=satsumas and babybel
l=lunch at spa, i had welsh rarebit but only ate half, i let my OH eat the free other course i was entitled to
S=apple
D=dinner at greens, i ate 1 piece of granary bread with olive oil
starter= potted mushrooms, brioche and caramelised onions(i ate half)
main=crispy pancakes with leeks and cheese(i ate 3 quarters)
dessert=1 chocolate sponge pudding with chocolate sauce and ice cream,it was so lovely

friday
B=1 veggie qourn sausage,2 tbs beans, 1 poached egg,1 granary bloomer slice of toast,1 field mushroom and potatop cake and oranage juice
L=flatbread with cheese, rocket,coleslaw and peppers and packet of kettle chips
s=2 rye bakes with laughing cow cheese
d=chips(!), mixed grill from takeaway that was lamb, chicken, shish, donner(love it)
followed by chocolate and amaretto tart and wholenut

I know my food over the last few days looks horrendous BUT on thursday the penny dropped.Normally due to my bingeing, I have always ate the healthiest option on the menu when i go out even though that wasnt what i wanted. As i have normally ate 1000s calories bingeing i have always restricted myself when i went out. It made me realise that if i didnt binge on food that i do not enjoy ONE BIT,i could eat the lovely food that i ate over the last 2 days without worrying.The last 2 days i have stayed in control of the food i was eating even though i wasnt calorie counting.i stopped eating when i was full,chewed slowly and put my knife and fork down after evey mouthful.
i know for most people the last 2 days would just be a short break away but for me it was a giant leap in the right direction.I dont know why its taken so long for the penny to drop about bingeing,durrrrrhhhhhhh!
I just hope i can keep it up.
Today, i havent been the gym, iv had a mammoth sleep of 12 hours and ate :
B=oatibix and skimmed milk and banana

I havent been the gym as i feel lethargic(its nearly my totm).

Im now on 1lb weight loss a week so back on 1200 cals a day